seasons of love

*Note: this post is completely random. diff from all the others...so its kinda unnecessary to read.*

so what now.
things are back on track...
we are happy.
i think.
i mean we are laughing and joking again.

so its all ok right?
right.
im confused at the point of all this.
like i mean its AMAZING.
hahaha.
but its going nowhere.

i need to go.
i need it to be august 12th.
then it will be easier to forget.
easier to forgive.
then i can move on.

i dont want to.
but if i dont i will be stuck forever.
its gonna be ok.
i know it.
i know your intentions are good....
but you did it all the wrong way.

im not pointing fingers at all.
i know i can accept some of the blame as well.
but its like in front of one ur somebody else.
i cant blame you though.
im the exact same.
unfortunately, i can be quite hypocritical sometimes...
but i wonder why u express with such ease when you know the words might hurt me.

that's the part i just dont get about you.
wait that's a lie.
there's a lot i dont get about you.
you are such a character...
i love having you around though.
like i look up to you.
you prolly dont understand why, idk if i do either.
but i know i do.
ur something like a role model.
minus the near perfection...

its crazy how your words make me feel.
but when its just me and you...
i feel like maybe i matter.
silly me.

my thoughts are all scrambled.
this post wont make sense to many.
if any...
oh well.
it was for me anyway.

i have come to the conclusion that i have to accept this...
this thing that's going on.
sigh.
whatever.

people are only meant to be around for a season...
summer's coming to an end...
here comes fall.
time's up.