missing

i wake up...check my phone.
searching for a text message or missed call.
nothing.
empty.
i roll out of bed, shower, get dressed and walk to breakfast.
i eat.
alone.
i walk to class.
slowly, steadily, lazily trudging.
i sit through class and get a test back.
5 out of 5... 100%
i pick up my phone and get ready to send a message.
think twice, stop myself.
i smile inside and keep my grade to myself.
i walk back home up the dreadful hill to my room.
i sit inside and do homework until dinner time.
i go eat again and come back.
i brush my teeth and lay down.
no goodnight baby's.
no i love you's.
no sweet dreams.
these are my days without you.
these are my nights without you.
this is my life...without you.