the forbidden

cherish me...
in private...
sheltered from the eyes of the public.
no one to scold you for your obvious faults.

hold me...
in the dark...
covered by the black blanket of sky.
its too dark for one to spy.

kiss me...
in blindness..
closed eyes and never think twice.
no one can hear the sucks of our lips.

whisper to me...
in privacy.
sweet nothings that pour into my ears.
no one can hear the cleverly masked lies.

love me...
but only with convenience...
masked in emptiness when it's just me and you.
no one to tell you this love is forbidden.

from the first moment

You love me...and i love you.
So let's just be together baby.
Those are the words I would want to say...
If I didn't have so much baggage.
Sigh.
In a few days, I will be gone.
And shortly after that, so will you.
How did we let so much time slip away?
We knew what our hearts felt...but we kept our distance.
The only thing that connects us now are the magnetic fields in our chests drawing us closer with each breath.
I love you.
You understood me from the very first moment you laid eyes on me.
Somehow you saw something in me that no one else could see.
I have been hooked on you since the moment I laid eyes on you...and it's the strangest love I have ever felt.
I don't think about you every single day...
But when you do cross my mind, it's like the entire world melts away and there is nothing left but me standing alone...smiling to thoughts of you.
We don't talk every single day...
But when we do talk, the sound of your voice brings joy back to my life and wipes away my tears.
Does this mean you are the one?
Is it possible to feel like I have already found you at such an early age?
No matter where our lives take us or who they take us to, we are meant to be together.
You light up my life in such a special way that no one could take away what we have.
I'll love you forever.
I'll like you for always.
As long as I'm living,
My baby you'll be.

in the corner

so heavy are the conflicted feelings on my heart that it feels like a weight is in my chest.
A weight i would like to rid myself of for the moment...
Until i can pull apart the twisted feelings stuck to my heart that shadow over the love i would like to have for you...
Love is crawling under the surface, itching to be set free.
But rejection, jealousy, and betrayal have towered over my heart for so long that it is now just a caged bird that cant even sing.
I don't understand why? Why me?
Why was i built up just to be broken down?
Why did you make me believe in something thats not there?
Why does it have to be this way?
Existing questions with non-existent answers.
There are no words to express what the love inside my heart now feels.
He is trapped, overcasted, and hidden.
With these overbearing emotions at the forefront, i dont know if he will ever come out again.
Ill just tuck it away...
In a corner of my heart.
For now.