in the corner

so heavy are the conflicted feelings on my heart that it feels like a weight is in my chest.
A weight i would like to rid myself of for the moment...
Until i can pull apart the twisted feelings stuck to my heart that shadow over the love i would like to have for you...
Love is crawling under the surface, itching to be set free.
But rejection, jealousy, and betrayal have towered over my heart for so long that it is now just a caged bird that cant even sing.
I don't understand why? Why me?
Why was i built up just to be broken down?
Why did you make me believe in something thats not there?
Why does it have to be this way?
Existing questions with non-existent answers.
There are no words to express what the love inside my heart now feels.
He is trapped, overcasted, and hidden.
With these overbearing emotions at the forefront, i dont know if he will ever come out again.
Ill just tuck it away...
In a corner of my heart.
For now.