astacado en reves

im feeling a lot inside...
im frustrated
because i keep saying that everything will be ok
and i know it wont
because i know what i want
but i cant have it
because what i want is...
"multi-tasking" to say the least.
because its all kinda my own fault.
because their words and actions dont correspond
im angry
because all i do is give
because words move me so easily
because it's not fair
because he claims to be trying
but i see no evidence of his efforts
im sad
because love has no margins
because they want to be here
but they dont...well cant, always stay
because theres more than one and im just another
because it hurts
im bleeding
because they each hold a different knife
that leaves a unique wound
because the cuts get deeper each day
because the pain feels good sometimes
and i like staying down
because when im down i have no hopes
so im never disappointed
im crying
because i want it to be ok
because he wants to stay
because he doesnt really care
because his distance is his biggest flaw
because i cant get it right.
because WE cant get it right.
stuck in reverse.