Eavesdropping

one day as i was taking a walk,
i stopped in front of a girl.
i do not recognize her yet somehow i feel like i know her.
anyway, this girl in front me silently stares blank-faced back at me.
no hello.
no smile.
no nothing.
shortly after i begin to hear voices.
there are only 2 voices and it sounds like they are arguing.
these voices are coming from deep inside this young woman
and from the look on her face she is
confused
hurt
heartbroken
to say the least.
i almost kept walking because i felt like this was none of my business.
this was not my battle
and i wanted to have no part in this internal dispute she was experiencing.
but i stayed
and listened
secretly trying to decipher the words coming from within this girl who stood before me.
this is the conversation i heard.

voice 1: when are you going to learn to listen to me. you need to let go and find your own happiness before you try to make some other man happy. if you dont find yourself, you will become as dark as the blood you pump daily.
voice 2: but Mind, he loves me. cant you see. he texts me all day long. he sends me special little messages on facebook. he calls me or at least tries to everyday. isnt that enough?
mind: i know heart, trust me i know. but i have been around long enough to know that sometimes all the little sweet things arent enough. if you cant be number one on his list then you dont need to be on his list at all. now what i need you to do is work with me to try to convince her to let go.
heart: let go? Mind, why do you always think you know everything? I think she should follow me. then maybe she will find her happiness and his along the way.
mind: but dont you see heart? she has given you to him so many times before. sometimes he takes you and all the love you have to give. but other times, he throws you in the backseat while he takes care of more important things. he is selfish and he is not ready to have you. so just let him go for now and maybe he will come around. but you cant keep holding on to false hopes.
heart: what do you know about anything? you cant even love. im the one that has to deal with being broken over and over again. all you do is sit back and tell me "i told you so" but you know what? I like taking chances. because the only time you find true love is when you put everything on the table. i know that he will probably never be mine and thats ok. because as a friend thats what you do. you stick by their side no matter what. even if it means i may get cracked in the process. i have no regrets and if i had to do it all over again. he could have me again.
mind: you are being so selfish. just to get some thrill. thats exactly why you cant keep giving yourself to every guy who comes along and tells you he loves you. some guys dont know what to do with you. and thats why you keep getting hurt.
heart: *bows head*
mind: there there heart. im just trying to help.
heart: i know. i just wish for once i could give myself to a guy that wouldnt leave me with scars and bruises. but until then i cant help it. ill keep trying until i find the one.
mind: but dont you care about her. i mean, look at her.

Now as I stare at this girl, there are tears streaming down her face.
Her big brown eyes are filled with evidence of confusion.
I see that this girl is on a quest for the one thing we all want to find:
LOVE.
I am also troubled because I dont know what to tell her.
I want to say everything will be ok, but she has heard enough lies.
She moves to wipe away a tear and I notice that my hand is moving along with hers.
Our right arms are moving in unison to wipe away our tears.
As I stare into the mirror, I tell her that I love her and that I will always be here for her.

I hear her mind.
I feel for her heart.
I see her pain.
I taste her sorrow.
I bleed her tears.
I have lived her struggle.